Michael Jackson - womb twin survivor?

Michael Jackson - more medical evidence that he was indeed a womb twin survivor, as we guessed long ago.

He had vitiligo and autoimmune disease. 


Notice the patches on his arms, more white than black.








The Vitiligo society would have been able to help.   More about vitiligo here

The connection of vitiligo with womb twin survivors  is indirect - vitiligo is an autoimmune disease, and autoimmune disease is connected to chimerism, and chimerism is connected to the merging of two twins into one in the very earliest stages of pregnancy.

More medical evidence to add to the glaringly obvious  psychological signs.

It would be good to be able to categorise Michael as a completely normal womb twin survivor instead of the usual epithets like Whacko Jacko and all the other mean and insulting things people have said over the years.   I know his family would prefer that title.

 There is a womb twin in the Jackson family already, so why not another?  It does run in families.....

You can FLY!!!

If you are in a black hole today, watch this:

Our first womb twin memorial!

We have our first beautiful memorial on our special new site.  I am looking forward to the day when there is a whole page of them!

There  are dozens of pictures that you can use to make your memorial on this page here:

Take a look,  and see how our little birds are learning how to fly off into the blue.....

Is it time for you to make a memorial for your womb twin?

See here

Support for womb twin survivors

Its not therapy exactly, but it's therapeutic.  Its a two way conversation and it helps.  Today I put up a  SUPPORT page on my womb twin survivors web site.  I think, after dozens of case histories over almost 8 years, that I've worked out a way to help womb twin survivors along the healing path.

Please take a look and see what you think:


SUPPORT

A new development: womb twin memorials

WombTwin.com now has a page for womb twin memorials.

Take a look!

This could be what you have been waiting for for ages.......

Finished!

In September last year I started to write the Book of the Womb Twin project.  Yesterday  I wrote the final words of the last paragraph of the last chapter and that was that.  I have  been enormously helped by a wonderful team of mentors, who have kept me on track and helped me more than I can say over the many weeks and months.

It's only the first draft, but now I can see the size  of the work - 170,000 words in about 400 pages as a paperback looking like this:

To be published as a WombTwin Book by Wren Publications on January 4th 2011.

The chapters will be:


Foreword by an expert on prenatal psychology, TBA
Introduction
PART ONE : THE DEATH OF A TWIN BEFORE OR AROUND BIRTH
1  The making of you
2   Now twins are made
3   When a twin dies close to birth
4   The death of a twin in the second trimester
5   The death of a twin in the first trimester
6  Twins united
7   Womb companions
PART TWO:  SOLVING THE CASE OF THE VANISHING TWIN
8  The background: a short history of twin research
9  Vanishing twins revealed
10  Indications of a "vanishing twin" pregnancy
11  Could YOU be a womb twin survivor?
PART THREE :  THE GREIF OF A LONE TWIN
12  The grief of a lone twin
13   A womb twin remembered?
14   My child is a womb twin survivor
15   A womb twin discovered
16   The lost twin in the Dream of the Womb
PART FOUR :  BEING A WOMB TWIN SURVIVOR
17   The Womb Twin Research Project
18    An unusual person
19    Signs of psychological distress
20    Floating feelings
21    Relationship problems
22    Self sabotage
23    Self-defeating behaviour
24    A fragile sense of self
PART FIVE:  HEALING
25    On being a twin
26   Tools for healing
27  The Black Hole
28   Forgiveness
29   Letting go
30   Alpha energy
Epilogue - The healer

APPENDICES
AppA    Signs and indications of a twin or multiple pregnancy
AppB    The analysis of the WombTwin Project research results
AppC    Triplet pregnancies - when only one or two survive
(Also glossary, bibliography, references)

Advance copies may be ordered now from Wren Publications at a special pre-publication price. 

Now it's time to polish it all up and create a second draft!

A beautiful farewell to a womb twin

When the womb twin work is done and you get to that stage on the Healing Path ( for more more  about that see our ebook)  it will be time to say goodbye to your twin. Not to lose him or her for all time, but to honour and memorialise the twin you once had but is now gone.


I received this email today from a womb twin survivor in the USA. ( I think this may end up on the Wombtwin.us blog too.)

Yesterday I said goodbye to my fraternal boy twin.  It was a most amazing spiritual and significant experience--words can't quite do it!   Accompanied by my friend Monica, I had THE MOST incredible farewell ceremony for Carl!  I had decided three days earlier that I needed to say goodbye. We were done, it was over, and I was ready to move forward, and rapidly.  The night before, I still had no idea how I wanted to say goodbye, but knew there was nothing tangible about him so there was nothing to tear, bury, burn, caress, hold.  In the morning we bought lots of very healthy food for my house, to nourish myself, and one nice loaf of bread for Carl ("Old World Bread with Caraway (care-away!) Seeds").  We drove to a beautiful white, sandy beach in Connecticut on Long Island Sound, in perfect weather--sun, a nice breeze, clean white sand and wonderful beachy air.  After hours of relaxing, sunbathing and dipping into the water, we decided it was the right time to say goodbye. As I was singing a song I chose in preparation for letting him go, two birds approached our blanket and sat in the sand, waiting.  There was no time to finish that perfect song.  They were not going to leave--NOW was the time!  I jumped up, went to the edge of the water, and started throwing bits of bread.  All the birds in the area heard about the free food and descended, eating happily as I was saying goodbye to Carl, running and dancing along the shore, laughing, throwing the bread, and watching all the LIFE that came to me as I was saying goodbye!  I was nourishing living animals and giving Carl back to nature.  Saying goodbye to one feeble dead being brought huge, happy, appreciative life to me, and even if it was for a short time (until the bread was gone), it was so symbolic of being a magnet for much more life ahead, by letting go of one little life that was keeping me back.

PS  Some of the birds lingered with us, sitting and resting on the sand with full tummies!

I have heard about or been personally present at  dozens of farewell rituals now and the love, sadness and creativity of every unique event never ceases to amaze and delight me.

This is from my new book, "Womb Twin survivors: the Lost twin in the Dream of the Womb"

The price of awakening from the Dream of the Womb is to finally face the reality of your original separation from your twin. You have been clinging for dear life to those dear shreds of memory, but in letting go of your twin you will not lose any of your precious memories or your sense of connection to your twin.   Letting go is not in fact a moment of real separation but a way to access the memory of a separation event that happened long ago.  You stand to lose nothing by letting go, for your twin is already lost. Rather, you have much to gain. 

A new day, a new fable

I came across this fable and tidied it up a bit for you to read here.  ( I been writing fables for  12 years or so, they seem to help express some of this womb twin work - read more here)

Womb Twin

All I ever knew was darkness until The Day. On that day there was a flash of new light in my perpetual darkness. It was only a flash but very clear. It showed me what darkness meant - the absence of light.  I did not understand my own darkness until I saw this light. The light showed me that my cave was empty - that I was completely alone.   All that remained was the knowledge that a way forward did exist, if only the light had stayed with me. Paralysed, I stood in the emptiness of the cave and tried to remember what it was that had so briefly shone in my life. There was a great feeling of insufficiency because the little light had been snuffed out, it was not strong enough to stay. With just one little light, so much would be possible! The journey would be easier, the way clear.....

Now I am always in the light, but I keep my eyes closed to remember the darkness and the little light that was so quickly snuffed out. I open my eyes sometimes, for just a little moment, but quickly close them again for I know that in the darkness of long ago is the answer, if I can just work it out….

But one day I recognised that Someone was there in the darkness. There was a touch, a feeling of turbulence around me. The Someone tried to lead me forward but I was afraid because I didn't know where I was going and I pulled back, saying I would rather stay and wait for my little light to come back.  I stood and waited and hoped, but after a long, long time I sank into despair, no longer believing in the light.

The touch came often, and each time I had a memory of my wonderful flash of light.  I yearned for it and wondered why in my life I am always being given little flashes of light that are soon snuffed out? I became angry that this should happen to me and that I should be left here in darkness.  Without a guide I could not see; without some sense of the path ahead, how could I move on?

But now, in this silent, waiting stillness comes a knowledge as deep as Time.  It surfaces in my heart like a healing balm. I realise now that, even in the darkness of long ago, I was accompanied, held and loved. In my familiar dark place I may now rest, knowing that all is well.  I will soon fall into a sleep of great rest.  After I have rested I know I will be able to open my eyes to see a new day.

Resistance to healing

Are you a womb twin survivor?  Are you stuck in your own Black Hole?   There may be more than reason why you continue to suffer.


Here is a short extract from Chapter 27 of my new book: which is called "Stuck in the Black Hole."

Resistance to healing

There are many ways to resist healing and we will explore just a few. The main point to notice is how they all require a great deal of energy to maintain. Each one is an excellent way to uphold your secret agenda, which is to stay just where you are, holding and protecting your little womb twin as if both your lives depended on it.

            Avoidance: You may call this “being stuck” and take it to therapy and spend many expensive sessions getting nowhere. Even better, you may allow yourself to make some small progress to give everyone some hope for a while, only to go straight back to where you were some months ago.

            Rationalisation: Notice how much energy goes into thinking of reasonable excuses for why you have not allowed yourself to heal.  You may decide that chronic scepticism about the whole idea of womb twin survivors is the safest option.

            Projection: With a certain amount of mental gymnastics you can turn the whole story round, so it can be your childhood, or your parents, or the uncle who touched you inappropriately, or that car crash, or the death of your dearest friend, etc., that made you this way.  You may even pretend that anyone who is foolish enough to believe in the Womb Twin Hypothesis is to be despised.

            Displacement: you may decide that not you, but the other, more vulnerable, womb twin survivors need healing.  You may decide to become a healer yourself, so convinced are you that you do not need any healing at all.

            Denial: you may deny your feelings about your womb twin so absolutely that you get taken in by your own story, and launch an attack on the whole process of womb twin survivor healing as spurious and potentially damaging.

            Identification: you may have a friend or colleague who is resisting healing in the some way. Then you can do the same, knowing that you have an ally.

             Procrastination: you may decide that healing has already happened, can’t ever happen at all or will only happen following some unlikely eventuality. This is an excellent way to put things off indefinitely.

             Intellectualisation: this is a great favourite - you can turn up to therapy every week and at great expense, talk endlessly for months and get absolutely nowhere. 

Comments welcomed!

Kenneth Williams - womb twin survivor?

I was looking for some good quotes about the Black Hole for the latest chapter of The Book, when I came across Kenneth Williams, and the fact that he most probably committed suicide. Thats not enough to make him a womb twin survivor,  except that he wrote a detailed diary for many years and suicide was there from the beginning. My research showed that the incidence of suicide ideation among womb twin survivors (40%) is very much higher than the general population as indicated in another study.  Also the stories I get seem to show that among womb twin survivors suicidal feelings can begin to arise as young at 7 years old.

So was Kenneth Williams a womb twin survivor?  Take a look and see what you think.

Hope you like the new design!

It's designed to match my womb twin survivors web site. Like it?  I'll be editing the pages later today to give you the entire web experience.....

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