This is a quote from another web site:
For me the fact of adoption still echoes with such questions. There is - I have no other description but one that sounds cliched - a sometimes deep empty place, a hole into which I fall in times of personal stress. I deal cautiously with people; I am friendly but reserved. A fear of abandonment, I was once told, a fear of rejection, of death. It flairs up unbidden, the slightest of things innocently said nonetheless strikes deep in my being, momentarily overpowering my thoughts. It can be very hard on the people I love best and it contributed to the breakup of my first marriage. All of it comes from knowing that in my earliest moments, they who should have loved me best gave me up to others.
I expect that this man is a womb twin survivor, which would account for his strong feelings about abandonment rejection and death.
The knowledge that one is a womb twin survivor can help greatly with overcoming any bad feelings that arise from knowing that you have been adopted.
1. The feeling of abandonment was always there and would still be there even if your mother had kept you.
2. Resentment is also a characteristic of womb twin survivors who have not yet done the womb twin work. If you do the work, it will help enormously to enable you to forgive your mother.
3. The fear of death is you identifying a little bit too much with your own Beta twin. You can read all about it here:
Let me know. Maybe I can help.