Insult arises out of injury

I found this post yesterday. It spoke to me of someone deeply hurt - but someone who doesn't know why it hurts so much. He feels "crushed" and "not strong enough" to face the hurt. Read on, and I'll tell you afterwards why I think this man is an undiagnosed wombtwin survivor. The object of this post is to demonstrate how one can read between the lines of what a person says and find the pre-birth trauma there in amazing detail, if you know how to look. It's how I do the "wombtwin work".

i hate my life, and i do at this moment, i am crushed. Don't ask me for the reasons, my life just sucks more than usual sometimes and i'm not strong enough to face some things, just not yet.

Anyway, some people told me many interesting things, many good things. But some others, well, the last thing you want to hear is "how pathetic you look", from people who don't know a s***t, know what I mean?

i actually feel sorry for them, they can't see beyond their noses. i read so much ignorance and stupidity, i just felt so bad. i have the right to have feelings, right? i have the right to write how i'm feeling, and i have the right to ask for advice, for help. But some people are sooooo stupid.

i feel bad 'cause i know they have problems, and they don't face them. They pretend to be perfect and insult people who are trying to get better - people who accept that life is hard and that acceptance is not perfect (like they try to pretend to be.)

i just have some words for you guys, You s**k! and would you mind keeping your f***ng mouth shut? thank you. You make the human race look stupid and bad.

The venom behind this outburst is palpable. There is real rage here, expressed as a desire to insult.

1. Here is someone (lets call him Reg) who cant stand to be criticised, and in particular to be described as "pathetic". Yet he already believes he is "crushed" and "not strong enough." That belief would probably be enough to make him appear "pathetic " to others. Yet once the description of " pathetic" has been given Reg is free to throw that back as an insult.

2. Now here its very important that Reg is the winner in the" how painful is my insult?" competition that Reg himself has initiated. He chooses "stupid" and "ignorant" as a worse insult than "pathetic. " The belief here is that Stupid will trump Pathetic.

3. In a classic piece if what psychotherapists call "projection". The insult is seen by Reg as coming from the other. It is possible that the other person was very low in intelligence and furthermore completely ignorant of the inner pain of this individual, but this is not to be so: the accusation of stupidity is the worse insult. So in response to the assumed insult a further and larger insult is handed out with a few additional swearwords, just to drive it all home.

4 The final act is to condemn the presumed insulter to silence. The presumption here us that if everyone leaves Reg alone and stops insulting him, then the whole human race will be up-graded The implicit meaning here is that somehow the person who named him as "pathetic " is themselves pathetic - a subhuman being. It is as if Reg wishes to make it quite quite clear that he an Alpha person and the other is a Beta person.

5 One assumes that having re-established his position and vented his spleen (impotently, on a blog) Reg then feels more at peace. He may imagine he has "asserted himself" and "let the anger out" but of course he is wrong. That perpetual painful, seething resentment will still be there, awaiting another presumed "insult" to set it free.

So where is the wombtwin story here?

A little crushed person, not strong enough to survive, without enough of a brain to respond appropriately or to survive. The beta twin who died away leaving the sole survivor alone, master of his own little world but forever bonded to a pathetic little creature who seems to be part of himself.

The powerful rage is the only expression available of this feeling of being torn in two; no one understands that Reg is "not strong enough to get better", and that is the pain. Out of the pain comes the strong capacity to give insults and his re-assertion of himself as the Alpha.

Its a muddle and a tragedy that monozygotic wombtwin survivors (like Reg) must constantly hurt others because they can't understand that the pain is theirs and has been there all their lives.