An energy economy

I have been giving a lot of thought to why I find it so hard to get help with this project and I think its part of our shared womb story,

There is a script that runs again and again - I ask for some help from someone who seems to be ready and able and they initially respond well. Then they just fade away, not having done very much at all and leave me either chasing them or left alone, feeling disappointed and let down.

It reminds me of the vanished twin, who promises well but then quickly fades away, leaving a sense of disappointment and let down.....

And hidden inside this story is one of two kinds of energy: the one is the energy of self preservation, self care and  self healing, and this energy is focussed inwards.  The other is the energy of relationship and connection - its a reaching out energy  and is essentially depleting. 

A critical piece of personal work,  in my view, would be to be aware of the balance of these energies on ones life.

If there is too much reaching out and making connections and one becomes depleted, then the result is an inability to cope and often exhaustion.

If there is too much inward self  preservation, the individual becomes isolated and devoid of all sense of reward  and support from others.

To balance these energies, the altruistic wombtwin survivor needs to practce a little more self care and not try and rescue and heal the world and everyone in it. Their batteries will soon recharge.

The self- protective womb twin survivor needs to reach out a little more and discover what the atruistic womb twin survivor already knows, - that there is a huge reward in helping, and this will be enough to recharge the batteries.

Is that interesting? Do post some comments and lets debate this.