Womb twin survivors, hopelessness and suicidal thoughts

The condition of hopelessness is, we are told, a good predictor of suicide.


So what exactly is hopelessness?  A lack of hope, certainly.  So what is hope? 


We are told that hopelessness is related to low self esteem, along with ( there were 73 signs in all)  


49. Job hopping
50. Addictions
51. Negative “I am ” statements
52. Eager to please people all the time
53. Feelings of hopelessness
54. Frequent boasting behaviours
55. Lack of energy
56. Lack of self-awareness
57. Excessive apologizing
58. Lot of negative self talk
59. Irresponsible and not caring of others
60. Neglecting physical appearance to extreme levels
61. Always fighting with others
62. Unable to form healthy relationships with people
63. Thinking too much of oneself
64. Thinking too little of oneself


People sing about a lack of hope: ( At least Marilyn Manson does) 


there's not much left to love
too tired today to hate
I feel the empty
I feel the minute of decay
I'm on my way down now, I'd like to take you with me I'm on my
way down
I'm on my way down now, I'd like to take you with me
I'm on my way down
the minute that it's born
it begins to die
I'd love to just give in,
I'd love to live this lie
I've been to black and back
I've whited out my name
a lack of pain, a lack of hope,
a lack of anything to say
there is no cure for what is killing me
I'm on my way down
I've looked ahead
and everything was dead
I guess that I am too
(chorus)
I'm on my way down now, I'd like to take you with me..


Is this the real story, that womb twin survivors feel that minute of decay? That they know death, the death of half of themselves, so what is death now, but only half a step into the realm of the dead, where your other half lies? Sounds absolutely natural to me.


Of course that is not to consider how your twin, your other half, would feel about you wanting to throw away the life that was granted you at such cost.


Here Bert Helliger had the words:


I am here; you are gone
I will stay here a little bit longer
And then I will join you.


Surely, the antidote to a sense of hopelessness is simple gratitude.
But before you can be thankful to be alive and grant yourself a full and happy life, you must first forgive oneself for being alive at all.
Moreover, one must feel forgiven by your own twin, for being the one who made it to birth.
Perhaps after all the hopelessness that leads to suicide is simple survivor guilt?    That would make sense of something seemingly senseless - a much-loved person, dead by their own hand.
I wonder: would it help the suicidal to stay alive, if they understood the hopelessness they feel is in fact the survivor guilt experienced by most womb twin survivors?