My twin brother was stillborn, under developed. I always felt different to others and I see things in people that other people appear to be totally unaware of. I have no fears and enjoy every day that I breathe.
I have no time conception, it is merely always just now. I see no value in money or monetary systems and I never have. I always want to help people, but only those that truly need my help. I have always had clear views of things, but sometimes I have procrastinated.
I have very thoughtful periods in my life, and I instinctively know 'exactly' what needs to be done and when. However, it is worth noting that I don't always want to do some of these things myself.
When a twin dies before birth, the sole survivor needs help and understanding. Womb twin survivors are the sole survivors of a twin or multiple pregnancy. This group, 1 in 10 of the population, includes survivors of a stillbirth, miscarriage, abortion and a "vanishing twin" pregnancy. It is a story of a twin bond broken by death, leaving a lonely survivor.
I enjoyed your story very much. You and I share a lot of the same traits. For instance, regarding money, I see it as a "necessary evil". I think people are way too wrapped up in money to see the big picture, but its been this way for so long it won't change. I also have no real fears of dying (because I know death intmately) and I see it as a natural phase of life. I used to live life for at least two people. I never said no to anything and did a lot of crazy and possibly dangerous things. I have calmed down a little on that aspect, however. I used to procrastinate constantly. I did not want to face things that were the slightest bit unpleasant. I have learned to deal with that, too. Your comment about time is very interesting to me. I have always been extremely obsessed with time and all measurements of it, especially months and years. I have a running calendar in my head that goes back almost 50 years where I can literally see a movie of certain days playing in my mind, very vividly, like it just happened. I often wish I could go back in time to high school, which I enjoyed very much, or to be a baby or small child again.But I often wonder what it would be like to relive my life with my twin and how different everything would have been.
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