I found out my twin was stillborn when I was 12. I always felt alone/lonely.
I am the youngest of 4 children the only girl. Ialways felt my twin was a girl but was never told anything.
My brother has since said it was a boy. I wish I knew.
I felt guilty for a long time, then I felt I had to fill my life with as much experience as possible.
This only served to ruin my life, looking for love and acceptance and making more than double my share of mistakes.
I felt my mother had given me two names hyphenated because my twin was a girl. I wish I knew.
I dropped the second name as it confused people, then when I found out about my twin it made me feel more guilty.
More about stillborn twins and names in this book
When a twin dies before birth, the sole survivor needs help and understanding. Womb twin survivors are the sole survivors of a twin or multiple pregnancy. This group, 1 in 10 of the population, includes survivors of a stillbirth, miscarriage, abortion and a "vanishing twin" pregnancy. It is a story of a twin bond broken by death, leaving a lonely survivor.
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