When at last all possibilities have been exhausted, and the search seems to be fruitless: when one is in despair and utter helplessness, then comes your moment of willing surrender. This has been called a "spiritual crisis" but I believe that it is also a form of imaginary "rebirth." I believe that this moment is the end of your Dream of the Womb, for it is the memory of your own birth.
It is hard to know how one comes to this place. It is certainly not easy to get to or to find. It arises out of desperation or exhaustion, out of a dark, dark night of the soul. It feels like the mother of all Black Holes and can be very frightening to experience - but that would depend on how traumatic your birth was. For some people, the surrender of the will is simple and easy and holds no fear: for others it is a terrifying prospect.
