Thursday, April 05, 2012
Womb twin story: my mom kept my twin a secret
I am an 18-year old man and I just found out my Mum is pregnant with her third child. When we were talking today about how impossible this is (She's in her early 40's!) In the talk she wondered whether or not she should tell me some secret and then decided not to, but I kept pushing until she did.
She said that I was a twin, but the twin had died a week before I was born. She also said she went to he doctors when she felt something was wrong and they couldn't find anything, it wasn't until I was born that everyone found out. At first I started laughing (it's my reaction to sad news somehow) I then got very upset, knowing that when I was a kid I had a lot of trouble (still do) making new friends.
I was always treated badly as a kid by other kids always made fun of, maybe because I wear a turban. But I knew that from the first day I could remember I had this imaginary friend. I still have this voice inside my head which sounds just like me but feels strange.
My mom also told me that when I was a kid I always use to beg for a twin and or a brother (my twin was a brother and I was 2 seconds older) I don't really know how to explain this but I feel empty at times, alone in this world, and that there's something missing in my life.
I always felt like I had a twin because every time I watched any show on TV about those twin powers or something similar, I found out that I could guess a lot of things that just turned out to be "lucky" guesses. I know I sound crazy but.... I really wish I could do something to change this feeling inside... My mom also said that they could have taken the babies (us) out earlier and maybe saved all 3 of us. She said that they got lucky that my mom and I made it through the operation.
at 5:30 am