Womb twin stories

After the maelstrom of last week, being accused of being a "fraud" and promoting some kind of "delusion" or " fantasy"  to people who are "mentally fragile and easily manipulated" etc etc.  by a bunch of so-called "skeptics" on their own special forum for being sceptical about everything (except being sceptical)  I returned home from holiday to find a load of emails, including this story. This lady has agreed to having her story made public.


 A few months ago, my mother was talking to me about my personality and traits that I have. I am a quiet, shy person until you get to know me. I always think of others before I think of myself. I never understood why others aren't like me. I always thought it was because I was raised in a christian home and was told to think of others before you think of yourself. But if I hear that someone has been hurt, for instance, I put myself in their shoes and actually feel the feelings for them. I also do not stand up for myself- a characteristic that I do not personally like, but I feel as if I am doing wrong if I speak my mind, so it stays bottled up. I think about death a lot. This is not necessarily a negative or positive thing for me. There have been thoughts of suicide in my life, as of now, I am a mother of 2, and a wife. I have other people to think about than me leaving this world.

My mom told me she didn't understand why I'm that way. Then I started thinking, well my biggest fear in my life is to be left alone. And I started thinking about it, and everytime I turn around, someone is leaving me. When I was born December 3, my mother had me at 26 weeks pregnant. I was a twin and the doctors thought my placenta was infected, so they induced the delivery. My mother had other complications trying to get pregnant, and when she was pregnant. I survived, my brother was crushed by my mothers uterus during delivery. While my mother was planning a funeral for her new son, I was in NICU fighting for my life. I stayed in the intensive care unit with nurses watching me around the clock. I weighed 1 lb. 10 oz at birth. My skin was transparent, and I still hadnt developed features, such as fingernails. I stayed in the hospital through Christmas and Easter that year. I was allowed to go home in March. Beyond belief of nurses and doctors, I had survived! All the prayers and blessings kept me alive! 


I was always afraid that I would be left alone in this world one day. The thought of that shadowed my young life often. When others argued or fought, I would try to be peace maker and try to stop it. I thought that if I could do something for someone else, everyone would be happy and all would be fine. Well, needless to say, I have finally learned that you can't please everyone. You can't make others happy if they don't want to be. I am still trying to please others, but look after my own life too. I have just started researching twins, to see if there were any reasons that I am the way that I am to better understand myself. I really want healing in my life. And to stop these negative feelings and thoughts that run through my head. While researching, I found out that there really is no information on womb twin survivors. This has compelled me to want to know more. And if there are 1 in 10 in this world that are survivors, then we need to help each other and ourselves to understand the feelings and reasons why we are the way we are. I want to join Womb twin to be a part of this organization and to begin the healing process myself, and to help others in any way I can to better understand these thoughts and feelings for them to go on with their lives. 


Now thats more like it! Lets forget scorn, derision and all the other forms of verbal abuse that some people like to throw at me, because they are so full of rage and hate and need a place to dump it. 


Here is a story that inspires me and shows that womb twin survivors are indeed a neglected group and I for one will try and do something about it. 


Onward! Chapter 9 will be about the history of twin research. The first chapter to address the Case of the Vanishing Twin. There will be 4 chapters in this part. More later.


Be well, my friends - here at least, Spring has arrived at last!