Healing path (6) From grief to acceptance

"If I Could Be Where You Are"

Where are you this moment
Only in my dreams
You're missing, but you're always
a heartbeat from me.

I'm lost now without you.
I don't know where you are.
I keep watching,
I keep hoping,
but time keeps us apart.

[chorus]
Is there a way I can find you?
Is there a sign I should know?
Is there a road I could follow,
to bring you back home?

Winter lies before me,
Now you're so far away
In the darkness of my dreaming
The light of you will stay

If I could be close beside you,
If I could be where you are,
If I could reach out and touch you,
And bring you back home.

[chorus]
Is there a way I can find you?
Is there a sign I should know?
Is there a road I could follow,
to bring you back home?

To me...

The pain is in the wishing for the world to stop, for things to have been different.
The healing is in the peaceful acceptance and the letting go.

After I let my twin go, almost at once I felt his presence close to me and he has been with me every since. Now it is not about wishing he was here with me, for he is here, and this time he is here in a way that is good and healthy and healing, not painful. It's like he is in the right place now. He is home.