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Delusions of grandeur, feelings of absolute omniscience and egomania is scary stuff.
My take on it is that narcissists are scared. Very scared.
In my new book a healing path I take a new and far more sympathetic view of narcissism. I believe that the sole survivor of a monozygotic twin pair, where the twin was almost non existent and never developed a fully functioning brain, is very likely to display narcissism.
This video makes it very clear that the narcissist has two very different sides to his/her character, like this:
Do you hide your inadequacies?
Are you filled with shame?
Maybe your twin was the other half of you and never developed very much at all..........
Any comments?
I don't even know how to begin on this subject. I was raised by a narcissist...I'm positive my mother was a wombtwin survivor..again, no proof whatsoever..except it was her way or the highway with everything. Needless to say, I hated her, and it was exacerbated because I was missing MY ally, MY best friend, my other half, who always hovered inside me, right on the edge of my persona, poised to come out at any time. There were several times my mother and I had physical fights, and she came out the loser. I was never sure if my sister had come out to fight or it was me. There have been incidents where something came out suddenly to stop me in my path of what I was about to do. It was usually in my best interest that that happened. Being raised by a totally narcissistic person, I felt myself swinging like a pendulum between sympathy for others and complete narcissism myself. I always hated myself later for feeling selfish. Sometimes I can't work up sympathy for other people, even when its called for. Other times, I'm crying uncontrollably at atotal stranger's problems and everyone's staring at me like I'm crazy. With Sam's story that you wrote about on Monday, I understood what he meant about hating people. Sometimes I absolutely despise people too; other times I care deeply. If I perceive somebody as being rude or arrogant to me, its instantaneous hatred on my part, and I feel like punching them.On the news, if I hear about somebody doing something heinous, I'll feel like finding them and making them pay. That's been my life, swinging back and forth. I'm never really in the middle of what I feel. Somebody told me once that my twin may have been undeveloped when she died and was amalgamated with me. That's why I feel such an affinity for babies and small children whom are deformed or very ill. I want to take care of them and lavish love on them. I don't, however, feel the same for older people.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your comment. I do hope that this blog post has helped you to understand yourself better. As for hating people that is a great way to feel self sufficient and not need anyone - that feels so very strong but it is in fact a character weakness - people who need people are the luckiest people in the world! Together we are stronger, alone and isolated we are nothing.
ReplyDeleteMy own narcissistic mother ( yes a womb twin survivor hersef) was a sad case - destroyed her own family and was so very alone all her life, always driving her friends away. Never trusted anyone.